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My new blogspot..

hik hik..atas komplen dari kak shemah yg ke-2..en blogspot telah selamat diadakan...baru mengadakan...mengisinyer satu cerita lain..but at least easier compared to friendsterla..

welcome to .. http://ceazars.blogspot.com/

aLLaaa..Nak BaLIkkk

Arrghhhh...kasik hanggat sungguh..tgh tgk citer Dunia Baru nihs..kesian Madeehah..punyala risau dok call husband dier..then sng2 jer Darius yg sdg tidur ngan nyenyak kat rumah bapak dier..reject call tanpa belas kasihan...arghhh.. brengsek...

Pergh..ilang mood I nak mengadu dek jejantas nihs...huwaa...boleh x bos x kasik balik raya cina nihs...dier suruh org stayback pasal harituh dah cuti lamaaa...uwa..kejam-kejam..dahla nak kene hantar Riza balik jugak Khamis tuh..the bus ticket from Penang is RM70++ la nih dek raya cina..cekik darah betul...xperla..at least boleh balik sekejap.. tapi x sempat lak nak hantar abah gie berubat karang...nak lenjan jugak hantar pagi khamis tuh..mahu flat aku nak drive balik ke KL.. Erkshh..di mana ada kemahuan ..disitu ada jalan.. I've done much worst than that before.. Insya-Allah..kudrat Allah bagi..sempat hantar abah balik raya cina nihs..

Tiada kerje..kah?

Bahana tertidur lepas balik dari opis tadi..dah kul 12 pun mata segar bugar..penat kut..mtg the whole day pastuh stayback buat MAPS lagik..tup2 x leh settle pasal GM x boleh nak approvekan for my contracting..chey..esok kene bergelut lg dgn MAPS la nampaknya..

Nyway..sempat tgk satu movie HIndi td..Bak Sat Hei?..apa ntah tajuknya..tayang kat Astro Kirana..pasal conflicts jiwa..Ira was married to a drunk husband-Steve, bad behaviour-Steve's friend Rahul always console her-then gradually they fall for each other-then there's a conflict-steve tried to kill Rahul using Nikhil- Nikhil got punished for that-Rahul got limp-met and in love with Anu which is the love heart for Nikhil..bla2 bla..the geese of the story was spoken..but what I learnt from this are..

First, ruginya kalau kita sayang pada insan yang salah...Rahul was very gentle yet so loving and they are very match for each other..yet they can't be together since Ira was married to Steve..Rugi shjkan they all built up that kind of feeling in the 1st place..then just break up..it hurts you know..penat jer nak makan hati then merana for the cinta yg x kesampaian..better not even to start at all..dah tahu pun bende salah kan..isteri org nak kacau buat apa..but I can't totally blame those 2 jugakla..1st..laki dier jahat..2nd..perasaan kalau nak dtg..we just never know..

2nd..ada part in the movie when Nikhil shows his empathy and concern towards Ira..and the scene was photographed..well of coursela ada adegan the guy peluk and kiss the girl with concern..tapi gambar kan..manala nak tulis kat situ..hugging with dear concern!..yg ada just nampak as they all hugging with each other..of coursela kalau si husband ternampak..mahu x mengamuk lelaki tuh...this makes me thing..ya Allah bahayanya sentuhan sesama manusia..mmg betul sgtla dalam islam kita ada batas2 kita dalam pergaulan..kalau dlm gambar tuh they 2 hanya berbual..sure kurang mendatangkan syak..tapi well..kalau dah jeleous...jarak sedepa pon dirasanya dekat kan...haha..manusia..manusia..

Kita nih lemah sgtkan..selalu jadi mangsa perasaan kita sendiri.. kesian betul..just bayangkan perasaan org yang cemburu.. kawan tuh baru say hi pon dah x boleh terima..and kalau kita sedang marah pulak..apa yg betul pon dah x nampak..kadang2 marah x kene tempat pulak..hanya kerana salah faham...tapi I guess itu yg menjadikan hidup kita nih lebih menarik yer tak?..kalaula kita hidup nih terlalu plain pulaks..dari mana datangnya exciting in life..peak and low in life nih jugakla yg mengajar kita utk lebih bersedia dalam hidup2 yg mendatang...macamana kita nak handle dengan certain2 cabaran dalam hidup..itu yg mencorakkkan keperibadian kita kan.. huhu..as for myself..tataula sejauh mana have I change with life..and whether it brings to the good or worse pon Zar x leh nak conclude..lebih sabar kah? x jugak rasa hahah :p..lebih berani..mungkin..lebih tenang..hmmm ye ker?..or mungkin lebih fragile dari dulu..am I?... :) I just know at some point I've changed...and you might be the one who made me this way...

p/s: the tulips I manage to capture in the UK..sometime I would really2 miss UK..kenapa ye..

Layan diri..

Sorry for the choice of song..been in a cave mood lately..but when you like a song..you just like it the 1st time you heard them in the radio..I don't even know the geese of the lyric..but the song really caught my ears...having the lyrics here.. wohh..no wonder...it's so dear...can I say that?..whatever..

JANGAN BILANG TIDAK

Ku pernah punya cinta
Namun kini ku sedang suka kamu
Cintaku dulu tlah ku buang jauh
Kiniku ingin kamu

Ku pernah menyendiri di sini
Ku akan terasa sepi
Walaupun bibir penuh gelak tawa
Namun hatiku sepi

Jangan bilang tidak
Bila kita belom mencoba
Siapa yang tahu akan sama
Hatimu dan juga hatiku

Banyak yang bercinta
Bertahun-tahun putus juga
Kuharapkan dengan dirimu
Walaupun singkat pendekatan
Cinta kita kan abadi

Jangan bilang tidak
Waktu dicium aku bingung
Namun dada ini bergetar
Pipi pun semu
Namun ku mohon
Jangan bilang tidak

p/s: rupa pizza yg telah ku usahakan sejak pagi lagi..quite a success..cuma rasa thyme bg spoil sket..hoho..tuhla..main bubuh jer..

Menerima Kau Pergi @ OST Andai Ku Tahu

I luv this song very much recently...gara2 cuti panjang end of 2007 yg lepas..abah sudah kasi ana ketagih dgn ini cerita...hmm..byk pulak yg zar ketagih eks..citer why2 luv, SPA Q, Dunia Baru, Puteri, Andai Ku Tahu..hmm meriah nyer hidup..

p/s: teringat kata2 zura hari nihs...hahah

Menerima Kau Pergi @ OST Andai Ku Tahu

Ku punya rasa tak terungkapkan
Hanya dalam memori hati dan benak ku simpan
Berat menerima kau pergi
Tanpa alasan juga kau buat aku.. bertanya...

Beribu senandung yang ku nyanyikan
Pelipur lara basuhkan dahaganya sukaku
Kata termanis hanya untuk dia kekasih sepanjang hidup
Ku masih merindukannya.. haa aa...

Apakah ku amat berarti di mata engkau
Telah ku ukir wajahmu lama dalam hati aku
Namun kau hilang dan takkan kembali juga
Ku merasa sepi, ku sendiri...

Beribu senandung yang ku nyanyikan
Pelipur lara basuhkan dahaga sukaku
Kata termanis hanya untuk kekasihku
Ku masih merindukannya.. haa aa...

Apakah ku amat berarti di mata engkau
Telah ku ukir wajahmu lama dalam hati aku
Namun kau hilang dan takkan kembali juga
Ku merasa sepi, ku sendiri...

Namun kau hilang dan takkan kembali juga
Ku merasa sepi, aku sendiri...

Gitu Gini de Czar

Aduuhh sengal..penat jer tulis panjang2..boleh laks dier main hilang2 bila tekan save..nih yg nak sakit hati nihs...uk uh...

malas dahla nak tulis..just nak bagi gambar2 terbaru dlm hidup..gathering tepen..weding memi (cousin) and gambar masa jumpa cik ampis@afie.. :D err..mana puleks..bubuh gambar wedding punk eks..

okeyhs..sok2 kalau dah x sakit hati che' tulis lagiks..

Janji..

Erm..dah seminggu raya..or to be exact 9 hari raya..as for me mcm tahun2 lepas raya tahun nih tade bezer..cuma tahun nih ntah ngaper ntah..agak kureng sket..lagi meriah ramadhan rasanya...

Erm..pasal janji nih..zar mmg plg pantang kalau org mungkir janji..and lagi yg paling x boleh terima kalau yg berjanji tuh diri sendiri...aduhai..kalau janji dgn diri sendiri pon xleh nak tunaikan..macamana pulak janji ngan org lain??

ada byk janji yg x tertunai raya nih..tuh yg agak ralat..1-janji tanak buat jahat kat mak during raya 2-janji nak habieskan ngaji 2- yg nih plg ralat..janji nak jumpa che yah while she's in Malaysia..masa che yah kat UK bukan main janji..nanti kita jumpa yer..pastuh last2..dier dah balik UK dah..raya pon zar dah x teringat nak call dier...hopeless betull..

Sorry che yah..rasa mcm i don't appreciate you enough..really sorry for that...i blame myself now n then...sorry lg..sorry juga pd nurin humaira..cik ina x sempat bg duit raya tahun nih..sorry 2 pokji..4 dissapointing your wife...sorry 2 all...

Ampun..

so sorryla..ramai yg  tanya kenapa x update blogs...ampuun.. TM sudah kasik block ini friendster...so so far hanya update perihal diri kat photopages..itupun..perihal bergambar shjla..lain2 luahan perasaan kenela tunggu ana bukak blogspot....ermm..bila yer...tungguuuuuuuuu!

http://ceazar.fotopages.com

Kegilaan apakah ini?

"Lebih besar periuk..lebih besar keraknya"..mmg tepat utk describe perihal manusia..kesenangan sementara mmg mudah utk buat kita lupa utk membezakan yang mana kemahuan dan yg mana kepentingan..contohnya sejak zar kerja nih..belum pernah rasanya zar menyimpan bulan2..alasan..'erk duit bulan2 pon x cukup!'

Macamana nak cukup..kalau asyik shoping jer kerje nyer..and it become a bad habit of mine recently..i am so predictable when we talk about shopping..but STILL.. I consider myself as a very wise spender.. yeah rite...eheh..

Hihi..just want to share my new families..tih tih..today I just bought 8 novels from Pesta Buku at PWTC..considering I had long ago bought one (is it really long ago? i think so)..but i dont expect i wud buy 8 at the same time though..so la boros.. I hate to admit that !..having to say that I couldn't help feeling very satisfied..like i always do after shopping..wahaha..it is soo mee...

Hmm dah banyak2..tatau nak baca yg mana dulu dah..and i hope this wud be the last for the next 2 years at least..cukup2la tuh..i will share the summary kalau rajin..plus skrg dah tak boleh update dr office..itu ITD sudah kasik tutup friendster punya web pulaks..hempehs tul..

keyhs..till next time..mlm nih ader dinner surrey alumni kat Mandarin Oriental..see you all there !

Letih..

Peliks..apahal ntah harini..letih semacam..mungkin pg tadi x amik bfast before gie mtg kat JRC..or mungkin juga penat bergaduh ngan En Harun..hahah..

balik2 opis..Datin ada bwk nasi lemak..adoii..sedapnya...and betapa tinggi kolestrol..apa taknya..dalam bungkussan tuh ada 2 biji telur puyuh..plus 2 biji telur mata kerbau..mau tak mellow zar jadiknya...

Itu yg peliknya..lepas makan pon badan letih mcm org berpuasa jer..baik puasa jer pg tadi kalau mcm nihs..hmm..mmg dah niat pon sebenarnya.. tapi pasal tekak nih perit sgt pagi tadi..tuh yg amik air masak jugak akhirnya...

Itu satu lagi hal..dah 2 minggu dah..suhu badan naik turun..sekejap dedar...tekak pon perit...tapi sat ok..nanti dedar balik...hmm sakitkah? sdg nak ikutkan..skrg nih..bukan main giat zar meneguk air putih..erk..walau x cukup..at least better than before what..

Bad girl..

weeeee...It's JJ Shopping day again!..I'm taking a leave yesterday and aware that it's totally not a good habit..but really 'need' to reward myself..:D

Unfortunately enough I knocked a car the day before..so I have to save a portion of my shopping budget for the repair..uwaaaaa...that RM230 was suppposedly spent for my 3-years dream perfume, Ralph..takperla..nak buat macamana..bende dah jadi..

Still I was overspending a little..he he..instead of only spending RM200, I managed to spend about RM300 yesterday..hoorayyy!!!!! and managed to get all I wanted..a pair of shoes, a bottle of perfume (really cheap one), 2 n 1/2 pairs of traditional clothing, a handbag, a pillow and +++...wahahhah che' Tipah kaya..just imagine how I carried those things back by LRT..with all those staring eyes...

The parking was horrible..adoi..by 9.00 a.m pon..the car park was full... it just by luck jer we got a free space around the corner..n guess what..just by the time Tini manage to get to her car..she saw this Bandaraya guys busy 'saman'ing all the cars next to hers.. woo scary maann...nasib baikla tak suruh Tini tunggu..

:D Puas..yep..I always have a peace of mind whenever get to shop lavishly..tapi apa nak buat..kita bukannya kaya kan..I'll see whether next year I got to buy my dream perfume again..or at least thingking of buying..k adioz..

akan keringkah tasik..sekiranya bayu kejam menhembus salju..kan keringkah hati...jika sedingin ini ku baluti pilu..

It's 2nd of February..'ve been 2 days since my 27th bday last saturday..and tell you what..this year it felt suck!..Err..I mean..ntahla..weekend yg agak depressing..kat mana silapnya? tatau..salah makan kot..:D..yg Zar ingat Zar sambut detik 12.00 mlm tuh dengan setitis air mata..not to let my housemet saw of coz..tataula kalau kantoi..but so far no trace..

On the big day pon Zar x buat apa except activity hujung minggu (basuh baju, kemas rumah and lepakkin')..bosan duk rumah..zar pergi jln TAR ptg tuh..dgn member..br hrtuh Zar dpt satu berita yg sepatutnya menggembirakan..sekali lg setitis air mata keluar..air mata gembira?.. :) cover lagi..hahah..yeah..be strong rite.. Alhamdulillah..I really proud with my heart..able to react cooly all the day..

Nasib baik smlm ada gie attend wedding anak En Ramdzan..kalau tak sekali lagi Zar mandom..cuma tuhla..mlm xleh lelap psl ptg dah tidor..Ya Allah..tuhan jerla yg tahu perasaan masa tuh...habis2 Zar sambung tgk cerita depress "Amrou Jaan" sampai kul 3.00 pg..tgh2 depress layan cerita depress pon OK gaks..at least kita tenggelam dalam cerita org lain..and cerita tuh makan dalam aa..heavy emotional get involved..and I do learn something out of that..

Cerita tuh sebenarnya pasal kehidupan seorang pelacur atasan, so much like 'geisha' in Japan..she got kidnapped and trapped in the society since then..surprise to know that she get very well educated to become a geisha (more comfortable to call them geisha than a prostitute I think)..siap dengan religious teaching lagi..and don't be surprise..she is a muslim..siap dengan sembahyang and berdo'a...tapi at the same time serve org la..yg nih very musykil...yg kesiannya sampai kesudah dia menderita...keluarga pon dah tak terima dia..kekasih buang dia atas fitnah..hmm..tuhla...sampai ke akhir sedih..tataula kat pawagam kat sana kene bakar panggung ke tidak..btw lakonan Aishwarya Rai is really somehin'...

An article I got from an email.. nice to share

It's been 18 years since I joined Volvo, a Swedish company. Working for them has proven to be an interesting experience. Any project here takes 2 years to be finalized, even if the idea is simple and brilliant. It's a rule. Globalize processes have caused in us (all over the world) a general sense of searching for immediate results. Therefore, we have come to posses a need to see immediate results. This contrasts greatly with the slow movements of the Swedish. They, on the other hand, debate, debate, debate, hold x quantity of meetings and work with a slowdown scheme. At the end, this always yields better results.

Said in another words:

1. Sweden is about the size of San Pablo , a state in Brazil .

2. Sweden has 2 million inhabitants.

3. Stockholm , has 500,000 people.

4. Volvo, Escania, Ericsson, Electrolux, Nokia are some of its renowned companies. Volvo supplies the NASA.

The first time I was in Sweden , one of my colleagues picked me up at the hotel every morning. It was September, bit cold and snowy. We would arrive early at the company and he would park far away from the entrance (2000 employees drive their car to work). The first day, I didn't say anything, either the second or third. One morning I asked, "Do you have a fixed parking space? I've noticed we park far from the entrance even when there are no other cars in the lot." To which he replied, "Since we're here early we'll have time to walk, and whoever gets in late will be late and need a place closer to the door. Don't you think?" Imagine my face.

Nowadays, there's a movement in Europe name Slow Food. This movement establishes that people should eat and drink slowly, with enough time to taste their food, spend time with the family, friends, without rushing. Slow Food is against its counterpart: the spirit of Fast Food and what it stands for as a lifestyle. Slow Food is the basis for a bigger movement called Slow Europe, as mentioned by Business Week.

Basically, the movement questions the sense of "hurry" and "craziness" generated by globalization, fueled by the desire of "having in quantity" (life status) versus "having with quality", "life quality" or the "quality of being". French people, even though they work 35 hours per week, are more productive than Americans or British. Germans have established 28.8 hour workweeks and have seen their productivity been driven up by 20%. This slow attitude has brought forth the US 's attention, pupils of the fast and the "do it now!".

This no-rush attitude doesn't represent doing less or having a lower productivity. It means working and doing things with greater quality, productivity, perfection, with attention to detail and less stress. It means reestablishing family values, friends, free and leisure time.

Taking the "now", present and concrete, versus the "global", undefined and anonymous. It means taking humans' essential values, the simplicity of living.

It stands for a less coercive work environment, more happy, lighter and more productive where humans enjoy doing what they know best how to do. It's time to stop and think on how companies need to develop serious quality with no-rush that will increase productivity and the quality of products and services, without losing the essence of spirit.

In the movie, Scent of a Woman, there's a scene where Al Pacino asks a girl to dance and she replies, "I can't, my boyfriend will be here any minute now". To which Al responds, "A life is lived in an instant". Then they dance to a tango.

Many of us live our lives running behind time, but we only reach it when we die of a heart attack or in a car accident rushing to be on time. Others are so anxious of living the future that they forget to live the present, which is the only time that truly exists. We all have equal time throughout the world. No one has more or less. The difference lies in how each one of us does with our time. We need to live each moment. As John Lennon said, "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans".

Congratulations for reading till the end of this message. There are many who will have stopped in the middle so as not to waste time in this globalized world.

Jauh di mata tp dekat di hati..

Siapa?? eheh..Melaka and those fellows being left behind..macamana I felt so much belongs to Surrey n UK..mcm tuhla Zar rasa for Melaka..bukan sekejap..5 tahun duk kat situh..byk sgt kenangannya...so setiap kali balik kg pon..rasa mcm tak sah kalau Zar tak lalu Melaka..bukan singgah pon..lalu pon jadi..rasa mcm balik kg jer rasa..

So last weekend biler dpt jemputan dari Yati n Muslim for their House-warming kenduri..I never miss the chance..boleh jumpa2 ngan K Fiza sekali..uhuksss..misses her already..Unfortunately..Kak Fae tade..balik kg jenguk rumah katanya..takut banjir..

Sampai ptg tuh..gie rumah Yati sat..nak tolong2..tapi mcm tade aper yg dpt buat..so me, met and Tini headed terus ker rumah K Fiza..Kelaparannnn..wahah..kitorang belasah kek yg Tini bawak utk K Fiza..chett..buruk siku..!! :D

Then malam gie rumah Yati..amik sekali K Zue and her children...hoho..1st time jumpa si kecik Akma..sorry..Cik Ina x lawat awal..:D..kenduri Yati kecik2 jer..part yg bestnyer..kitorang dpt makan banyak..wah kah kah..ngan nasiknyer yg sedap..waduhh..lappa rasa..Thanks Yati n Mus..sebab jemput kenduri..

D next morning main masak2..plan nak berjogging hancusss.. :p K Fiza was a superb host..siap masak baked macaroni..end up with eating our bfast at 11.00 a.m kalau x silap..eheh..then masak2 lunch pulaks..keadaan mmg meriah ngan kehadiran anak2 kak zue yg 3 tuh..waduhh..I siap jadik tukang cuci lantai lagiks..ekekkeksss.. Thank K Fiza, for your hospitality and seme2..

p/s: sempat singgah Giant, mlk..tapi x beli aper pon..tapi dpt selipar kiut..

Samsons consert 06/01/07

Having a dull day in d office last Sat, the day was saved by the performance of 5 machos men that I admired since the song of Kenagan Terindah...don't get me wrong of the type of girls busying their nights out, this is my 1st out to a concert except those Nasyeed days in MMU..I went with Wani who get 27 by 12 that night..and we got a free ticket through our ticket manager..Ms Aniza..he he he

It was fun..though it's rainy till the end..there is one time when the rains get heavier when we decided to take off..clever enough, Samsons managed to get us stayed with the last two songs, Kenangan Terindah and Naluri Lelaki.. Adoila..but we'r lucky to manage to squeze ourself under this plastic cover covering the show camera..never care about who's standing beside us (might probably some indons when the concert was dominated by their type) we sang along and really really absorbed by the performance. The shows ended before even 11.00 p.m..

sorry I didn't have photos to display..ayoo..takutla nak bwk camera kat tempat2 cam tuh.. kang ilang kang...

p/s : masa nak masuk..sikit punya ketat diernyer security..ticket check..bag check..body check..and lastly pakai handbandla pulaks..

I'll stand by you..

hmm..menghabiskan masa dgn beberapa kegilaan all together last wiken quite overwhelmin'..not to mention the wedding invitations..dlm kepala simulteneously boleh dok rewind certain2 chapter in Harry Porter 1 (baru berjinak2 dgn buku dier  n tgh nak revise jugak film2 dier) and episods in korean drama "sweet 18"..rasa packed semacam... :))

And today laks terserempak dgn lagu yg tetiba jer..ehhh sukeerrr gilerr..I don't think it's about the lyrics..tapi ntah...mmg suker laa..

I'll stand by you - suker yg Roxette nyanyi..

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen a dark side too

When the night falls on you
Don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm alot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when....
When the night falls on you ,baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

Lastly..Selamat Pengantin Baru to Dr Fazly aka Paklong, Nadz, ct syafa and Kak Ema...really happy for you guys..

My trial for photobucket..

hmm.. main2 ngan photobucket..tapi x leh upload laks.. try letak kat sinih laks..agak2 boleh baca x?

cheh..mmg x leh nak upload...nih yg tensi nihs.. x perla..

Yg Hilang..

Dalam kegemilangan yg memuncak..

Kubiasakan diri dengan rasa istimewa..

Semangat yg membakar..

Tak pernah pudar rasa percaya…

Lalu sinarku terpancar segenap arah..

Hilang langsung sedikit kegelapan yg melanda..

Namun mengapa kini tiada lagi istimewa..

Hilang sudah rasa bangga..

Pudar sudah masa hadapan yg semakin tiada sirna..

Bukankah alam ini yg ku damba

Sehingga ku jejak tanah yg asing..

Sehingga ku gengam kemustahilan mengikut rasa..

Hilangkan warna diri..

Sehingga mimpi pon gagal ku corakkan…

Semakin ku takut menyemai impian..

Airmata pon murah berlinangan..

Salahkah diri menentu pilihan..

Agak bilakah bintang kan datang…

Walau ku belajar memahami rasa kehilangan…

Walau masih ku tongkah jalan dgn sedikit harapan..

Pada-Mu tuhan…kuserahkan kehidupan..

Seorang hamba yg kehilangan..

Tegarkah hati krn x kesah..atau tak rela hati ditandang kecewa...

Time-time free mcm nihs (akhir bulanla katakan..)..mmg best biarkan fikiran melayang2..fikir bende2 yg tak sempat nak fikir masa lain..aicheewah..busy sgtla kononnya..tapi saja mengasah minda...

Acanni..arituh member pernah tanya.."Zar nko tak sedih ker?"..(merefer kpd suatu bende biasa)...biaser tak dengar pertanyaan2 mcm nih dikala kita dilanda sesuatu musibah..adoko tanyer mcm tuh..dah kene musibah..mestila sedihkan..

Cumanya macamana kita expresskan sedih kita tuh yg berbeza..ader org kalau sedih..dier akan murung memanjang... ader pulak byk makan..ader yg gie shopping (eheh..mcm kenal jer)..aderla yg mcm2..me myself..selalunya I choose to forget..for me, masalah/perasaan sedih tuh akan lebih menekan perasaan semakin kita fikir..amboi semakin tersayat2la hati konon..letih betul..

sometimes kita meluahkan kepada seseorang (which I do all the time)..tapi believe it or not..sometimes meluahkan nih lagi memburukkan keadaan..sometime ajer..tapi kalau meluahkan perasaan marah pasal geram kat org..mmg elok luahkan..kalau tak buat sebal kat hati jer..aper yg zar kata lg memburukkan tuh..pasal bila kita dah mula bercerita kat seseorang tuh..lagi lama laks kita nak ingat bende2 yg sayat nihs..yerla pendengar tuh dah jd mcm satu tempat tetap pulaks..bila pandang jer muka kawan kita yg pendengar nihs.. lagi tersayat2la kedukaan kita tuh..aicehhh.. poyo..and the story goes and on and on..so we might want to choose whether to tell or not to tell..and what is the motive of telling..

And paling penting kawal hati kita..org yg tegar dan tabah..selalu bangun dari dunia murung dan jadikan dugaan tuh satu challenge..and dia akan fight habies2an..barula boleh maju..tapi org yg semakin hanyut dgn perasaan adalah org yg paling rugi..korang perasan tak..melayan perasaan nih tak kemana perginya kita.. hopeless!

Zar ader kenal satu org yg cukup memendam..tak tau nak nak kata macamana..nak kata dier nih pendiam..tak pulaks..biaser berckp jer..tapi dier nih mmg takkan bercakap part2 yg dier sepatutnya KENE sedih..sampaikan kita yg melihat nih mmg tak tanyala..yerla kang tak kene gaya kang lagi sayat pulak..kesian jugak..tapi itu cara dier..kita kenela support..buat2 tak tahu..tapi kawan yg rapat..ambik2la tahu jugak sesikit eks..

Just nak ckp..sbg manusia..kita ader cara2 tersendiri bagaimana nak atasi masalah kita..find your ideal way..if you need to eat or shop to shift your attention on that matter..let it be..but beware of the consequences aaa...gemuks and pokai taktau..kdg2 misdirection nih berkesan jugaks..sometime pulak just alasan pasal mmg nak gie shopping kan...balik mcm tuh jugaks...sebal..

Aper2pon..Be strong bebeh !

Clear !!

Itu yg Zar rasa today.. clear seclearnya.. and Alhamdulillah..rasa tenang setenang2nya to know the answer..satu dua hari nih something bugs me..to make me thinking and put a little hope...Alhamdulillah..harinih zar dah ader jawapannya...though it's not the answer that I hope for..tapi at least relief..satu persoalan dalam hidup dah berlalu dengan smooth..

Macam tuh yg Zar harap dalam perjalanan hidup..hope sgt satu2 masalah atau persoalan hidup dapat zar lalui dgn tenang..dan paling touch..kalau directly Allah bantu untuk bagi kita answer tu...mmg touch sgtla...Allah, you d best..

Bercakap pasal harapan..manusia nihs tak pernah lepas dari harapan demi harapan..Sbg org Islam..pastilah kita sandarkan pada kenangan..eheh..kita sandarkan pada Pencipta kita sendiri..itu yang terbaik..tapi kenela ada usaha jugak kan..bila part usaha nih yg Zar takut...Adakah islam menghalalkan kita mencuba sesuatu yg diluar shar'ie semata2 atas alasan usaha...dan adakah kita nanti kan ditanyakan diakhirat nanti...Dimanakah usaha kamu utk mencapai harapan kamu sekiranya kita tidak berbuat apa2? ataukah cukup do'a itu sbg satu usaha..jawapannya Wallahu'alam..

Bagi Zar..walaumacamanapun..sure kita tidak boleh main langgar jer syarak atas apa sebab sekalipon kan.. (which frankly I did broke some rules that I know and believe are wrong..)..tapi zar terikat dalam bab usaha..because at some point mmg hopeless ttg usaha..hmm mcmana tuh agaknya...

Mcm zar terikat dlm persoalan sambung belajar..Bila Allah dah berikan segala nikmat utk BOLEH belajar..I choose not to further my study.. alasan tade minat.. or plg tepat.. malas pon iya..Will I be asked in the judgement day..why haven't I use the nikmah yg Allah bg to study further..kufur nikmahkah zar?..sedangkan belajar adalah satu yg dituntut dlm islam..haaa nih yg takut nihs..Byk nIkmat Allah bg serentak kat seseorang tuh...then dia tak gunakan.. sdgkan org lain..kalau dpt peluang takkan lepaskan for everything in the world..

tapi zar pernah cuba satu masa dulu..buat satu bende pasal zar rasa Zar kene buat.. It's not working..penghabisnya Zar jadi demotivated and stressed all the way.. hmm nak kata kurang motivation..diri sendiri bukan main pandai bg motivasi kat org..konon bagusla tuh..eheh..

K enough for merapu.. kat yahoogroup skrg..member bukan main hebat berbincang pasal human's right and Bumiputera rights..tak sempat nak follow pasal ms diorang start tengah busy..tak sompek nak baco..ado maso pon..dok merapu mcm ginilah..ngabihkan boreh yo.. :}

It's Shopping time !! 16.11.06

Hempehs..kalau dah nama perempuan..dengar ader sale jer..mmg tangan dah merenyam..lebih2 lagi JJ membership day. Awal2 lg Zar dah senaraikan list utk beli barang.. Limit utk berbelanja RM200.. ONLY!!..Yeahh rite..

Pukul 8.30 zar dah sampai JJ Mid Valley..hmm tak ramai lagi..of coursela..hari kerje nihs..eheh..so berserapankan sekeping roti pagi tuh zar round2 sambil cekau2 sorang2..tup2 dah nak kul 2 ptg..guess who I found? boleh laks jumpa Kat and wife, Sarah and mumu and Mega..

By kul 2 tuh Zar supppose dah kene balik..he he nak tgk BMBP..(jenama bawang di tv3) kul 2.30..tapi Q sikit punya panjang nak collect vouchers..and how much do I get? I got RM50 voucher since I spent RM500 that day.. lalallalllallall..there goes my December shopping..so by today I have another 21 days to live without charging my credit card...except for fuel of couse...how miserable....

Byk consequences rupanya lepas shppoing that day.. I'm not that happy pon after spending..pasal tak beli baju baru..I'm not happy thinking about the credit card bills..and not having a nice sleep after buying the comforter set (nice to see it laying on the bed but not while sleeping)...pasal..now I remember that I'm not really wearing the selimut before.. ayoyo thambi...

Aper-aperpon, dah janji kat kawan nak habiskan bayar credit card jugaks...to eat not to eat..wooh ye...malam nih nak tgk Nana Tanjung...Nana Tanjuuuung !

Jalan2 cari makan..makan2 carik Opis

heheh...ntah macamana did I agree to this idea in the first place..byk2 tempat..me and my housemets had agreed to break fast at Tini's office this evening..why? pasal nak makan ayam golek Pantai Dalam punya pasal...we tot nak pergi beli ayam golek tuh lama..so budget2 dalam kul 6.30 baru habis beli makan ker..tgk2 lengang giler..so dah habies beli makan by 5.30...owh..I forgot to mention yg kitorang keluar sharp at 5 pm pasal takut 'jammed'...

Grrr.. So La nihs..che' tgh dok melangut kat Opis Cik Tini la nihs..tatau nak buat apa..TV tadak..citer CD aper2 pon tader..lupa pulak alamat meebo utk connect dari PC nihs..nak dengar Hotfm pon tak bleh...abies2 che' check email la kunun..padahal..email abieh check dah tadi sblm keluar opis..

Hmmm.. ader lagi satu jam nak melangut..takkanla nak tulis blog panjang2 kot? ker? nak citer aper lagik eks...Haaaa... semalam Zar berbuka ngan Laily..makan sate kajang kat Taipan, Subang...sampai sesat barai pasal masing2 tatau jalan..tapi at last sampai jugaks..bravo laily !!!

Adooiii sedap banget... ingat nak makan sate ajer laa..tapi alkesah Cik Laily punya kerja..dier pesan nasi goreng papril and milkshake..zar pon order gaks kueytiow ladna ngan mocha ice blended.. tanak kalah nihs...sate 20 cucuks..tak cukup ngan yg tapau lagi 20 cucuk dier..20 cucuk zar... eheheh.. habies2.. tersadai..sate sempatla makan dalam 5-6 cucuk jerr.. kueytiow lagi satu suap jer lagiks pon tak terlarat nak sumbat lagi dah... :D 

moral of the story..makan jgn ikut nafsu !! >:) So hari nihs..kita oder sikit jer :D..

menu of the day : ayam golek, tomyam, telur bungkus, nasi putih and ayer bandung !!! wahhh biler nak buka nihs... ader lagi 45 minutes to go...aper nak buat lagiks eks??????

Cik Ivy is back !!

Hoho..sengal..terbayangkan kesengalan masa Cik Ivy masuk ward 2 minggu lepas..gara2 penangan my bro, bobob..baru ingat nak kasik dier main2 stereng..sudah diwardkannyer Cik Ivy..Sorryla brother..no more eks.no more..

But Alhamdulillah.. Cik Ivy is back.. and guess what..in better shape..iyerla..itu bumper depan yg I tarah dulu..sudah licin...eheh...

Pk-Pk balik..mmg pernah ader niat nak tukar bumper depan raya nih..pasal teruk sgt torehannya..malu nak bagi sedara tgk raya2 nihs..tapi ingat tak jadikla memandangkan ekonomi kureng membanggakan.. aiceh..kalau ader duit pon che' bantai shopping...tup-tup...kbanggggsss..

So in a way, I need to thank my bro la..claim tatau lepas ker tak..not even knowing the total cost for the repair...yg tuh PK kemudian..

la nihs..PK duit mana nak bagi duit raya.. duit mana nak bayar saman accident harituh..semua org compius kenapa aku kene saman..bukannya langgar org..kan..

Apo-apo jerla..to Cik Ivy.. Luv you so much..jgn bg che' nervous lg ok..tak pasal2 jer trauma dok jd co-driver..ader seriau-seriau sikit...tapi will heal by time kot..harituh masa amik cik ivy dari w/shop pon agak berhati2 sjet..tapi balik KL dah pecut baliks..ehehs..tapi semenjak-menjak dpt speeding ticket last few months..skrg nih dah tak berani laju dah..laju sikit2 jer.. :D

Afie oh Afie..

Esok..tanggal 16hb September.. Afie akan bertolak ke Kota London semula..kalau 3 tahun lepas kami pergi bersama..kali ni Afie gie bertiga..dengan mak dan ayah dier yg akan balik semula ke Malaysia..

Bestnyer Afie..Alhamdulillah..rezekinya dipermudahkan utk menyambung PhD kan Oxford..Jealous? of course!..but bukan kerana dier buat PhD (err..jealous jugak sebenarnyer kerana dier diberi keinginan dan semangat utk buat PhD)..tapi Pk pendek punyer jealous pasal dier dpt balik UK..ehe..

Kengkadang rasa mcm kufur nikmat sebenarnyer.. I'm sure I have all the capabilities of furthuring my study towards a higher level..cuma 'jiwa' tuh tade..kesian betul..tetiba teringat case mamat2 gay yg hensem2..cukup sifat semua..tapi tade 'desire'.. hoho is that considered kufur nikmat as well..

Perjalanan masih jauh..I'm not a step closer to my 'tujuan hidup'..as if I have any..hati yg makin tawar...future yg makin kabur..usia yg makin tua..ntah aper nak jadi ngan hidup nih yer.. I really hidup someday, I'll find some lights to guide..and really hope that someday won't be that far..

TO AFIE, GOOD LUCK DEAR..I know you can do it.. Luv yah!

 

Hari2 bosan

Bosan..bosan..bosan...hari nih dah hari ke-3 zar melepaks kat office nihs..kepunden betul..bosan giler pasal tade kerje langsung.. tuhla..bulan lepas..time sibuk bertimpa-timpa..nih dah penghujung bulan nihs..tader kerje langsungla pulakssss....menunggu awal bulan yg org hectic giler biasernyer masa tuh..

Adoi..kusut la...rasa berdosa la pulaks..gie office goyang kaki..membazir jer TM bayar gaji..as taker said.."you're under used !"

Hati yang jahat..

pernah tak kita kadang2 biarkan diri kita buat satu benda jahat walaupun kita tahu perbuatan itu salah..and then nak sedapkan hati..kita ckp kat diri sendiri.. alaa bende kecik.. hahah...makin hitam hati..

semakin hitam hati nih jugakla yg boleh kita hilang pertimbangan, terlampau mengikut kata hati, rasa depressed yg tak terkawal, tak tenang and mimpi yang pelik2..bercakap pasal mimpi.. I could not remember any single day yg Zar tak  bermimpi..pelik2 pulak tuh..terasa tak normal pulak biler my rumet ckp dier tak pernah laks mimpi.. tataula aper lagi yg zar silap..nak kata tak basuh kaki, biasernya Zar akan smbyg inya' just sblm tido..hmm.. aderla nih yg tak kene.. mungkin diri yg semakin jauh...

dengan hati yg semakin kosong...takkut jugak biler pk-pk balik...Mudah-mudahan ader jalannya..ya Allah ..Permudahkanlah..

Moving my mood..

Hem..semakin liat nak update blogz kan.. bukannyer aper.. zar dah berarah mood utk update my fotopages instead of this blog.. I find it easier la..especially bab2 nak mengupload gambar.. bosan kan citer2 tade gambar.. :D so kalau tade citer 2 dlm blogs nih..bukan bererti saya telah tiada, bukan juga kerana saya telah terdampar di pulau or bukan juga sesat di hutan simpan.. adiozz

Preserve your value..

Ader member hantar email nih.. berkesan kat hati..especially dedicated for my best friend, Wani and Zarina..Up and down, it's life !

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $500/- note. In the room of 200. He asked, " Who would like this 500 note?" Hands Started going up. He said, " I am going to give this note to one of you But first let me do this." He proceeded to crumple the note up.

He then asked, " Who still wants it?" Still the hands were up in the air.

"Well," he replied, " What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.

He picked it up, Now all crumpled and dirty. " Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.

" My friends, you have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $ 500/-. Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. You are special don't ever forget it!

Never let yesterday's disappointments overshadow tomorrow's dreams."

Wedding..Wedding and Wedding

Three Weddings in a row on last Sunday. Nampaknya masing2 tak nak melepaskan peluang in this scholl break season. The first wedding I attended is Herman's..kat Taman Maluri..masa sampai tuh dlm kul 12.30 tghari...nak masuk pon malu2 pasal takut awal sgt sampai..mmg awal pon pasal pengantin keluar kul 2.00 ptg. Nak buat macamana..lepas tuh nak ke Majlis Isqi pulaks kat Bangi..So amik gambar pelamin jer.. Masa kat majlis nihs terserempak ngan Shah, Cheq and Oteq and his GF. So kitorang konvoi sekali ker majlis Isqi...

Majlis Isqi kitorang sampai dlm kul 2.30 ptg...ader juga nampak beberapa Taipingians..Hafiz Hassan, Ely, Babyrip and Hubby, Leni..dengar kata Nazi and Mai dtg juga..tapi kitorang tak sempat jumpa.. Hmm..gambar nihs Cheq yg amik.. oiii..tgn shaking..kabur gambar I... apo nak buek..itu jer yg ader..mmg hopelessla gambar that day..semua goyang..nih yg nak kene beli double anti-blur nihs.. uishhhh...

Then ke Shah Alam laks..hoho..org semuer dah baliks..tapi nasib baik ader beberapa table lagi masih open... hahah..

Lepas tuh beta balik rumah..penat giler...yg lain meneruskan perjuangan di Stadium Bukit Jalil..semngat nak sokong Myteam.. though kalah 2-1, Myteam mmg best.

Last but not least, tahniah to Haziq, Farhan and Didy AF4....they all mmg deserve it!

Now another one is leaving..

Hmm..sad..sad..lama dah tak menconteng...now I come with sad story..One by one is leaving INO and yet..I'm still here..

After En ZulQ, Syafa and Faizal were leaving in September, now En Syuk is following the steps..dengan siapa lagila zar nak mengadu lepas nihs..the best thing is that..both of the managers are the one closest to me.

harituh Zar terpk..remember about my obsession about joining the Satellite Group? Now I'm reconsidering...For my whole life, my footsteps are one of those of the very easy one..Alhamdulillah..and I always believe...kalau mcm susah jer utk zar capai sesuatu tuh..mesti ader something..maybe not a good path for me..It turns out to be always true.. Mcm Satellite nihs.. macam susah jer zar nak dpt..dah setahun dah...and I've put my effort..though a little... and tak dpt jugaks..there must be something wrong somewhere..yeah..actually I know where..

Hmm..takper..I just want to get along with the wind direction at the moment.. Insya-Allah sooner or later.. I'll achieve the 'unggul' destiny..Well I really hope so.. just wait and see..

Picnic di Sg Congkak on Maulidur Rasul..

Hmm..sekilas tgk mcm jahat jer.. org lain dok selawat ata Nabi..tapi Zar n housemet sibuk gie picnic..buat dosa jer..tapi tuhla..bukannyer sengaja nak gie on that day..tapi susah nak carik weekend utk bersama seluruh ahli rumah...Selawat ke atas baginda..

It's like a blessing on d Maulidur Rasul day, pagi tuh langit mendung dan dibasahi dgn rahmat Allah ( hujan rintik2) tapi kami teruskan juga perjalanan ke Sg Congkak tuh..yerla..it's not easy to arrange for d day kan.. Awal pagi lagi my dearest met dah bangun masak bihun.. hmmm sedappp! Met mmg pandai masak bihun..terkenal seantero org gomen..eheh..

So kitorang terus bertolak dlm kul 8.30 pg..sampai dlm kul 9.30 pg lebih kurang...sblm mencari spot terbaik..ader satu isolated cabin@ actually a pangkin dgn sewa RM 5.00 per pangkin plus RM 1.00 for parking. OKla tempat tuh..cuma pangkin tuh tadak dinding...

Sampai tuh..terus kami membelasah b/fast..beriyer tahan lappa semata2 nak makan kat tepi sungai..eheh..apa laga kebulur la kitorang.. habis makan skrg tiba masa berendam..poyot boncit2 pon boncitla..bukan senang nak berendam nihs..sementara badan masih paanas slps makan..kang sejuk kang tak berani sentuh air..

Adoiii..punyala 'tojuk' air..ngan deras lagiks..aduhai..mencabar jugaks..eheh..berendam dlm 1/2 jam.. Zar dah tak tahan..more to zar tak berani nak berendam lelama sebenarnyer.. coz last few weeks I'm very prone to flu and fever.. kepala pon dah beku semacam..lagila cuak..sementara dah naik duduk2 kat pangkin..kawan2 masih lagi berendam..I try to figure out..macamana nak salin pakaian yg basah.. dgn ader sorang suami org yg asyik pandang kat kitorang depan bini dier..kurang hajja!..

Hahah..Tapi berjaya jugalah semalam..kecuali pasal en penggatal tuh..yg lain best.. sampai rumah dlm kul 2.30 then Zar terus tidur sampai kul 6.30..gillerr letih..padahal bukannya driver pon..tapi bagus jugak zar bantai tidur utk rest kan diri..skrg nih bukan boleh letih sket..memanjang rasa nak demam.. symptom2 org tuer kot..eheh..

p/s: Used to call a friend 'Fragile'..skrg mcm dah kene tulah.. (gambar to be posted later)

Define 'Best'...

Aiseeh  Husna.. Sorry for keep you too long for the ranking…Anyway..my ranking is just based on the drama that I had watched eks..and ke’best’an sesesuatu cerita pon depends on d invidual’s preference on the type of movie that she/he likes kan…My rating is as follows :

1.     All about eve – sweet and best sgt2 - *****

2.     Sweet 18 -best bgt - *****

3.     My Girl – best and sweet banget..pluss hero dier hensem hehe - *****

4.     Full House – commel - *****

5.     Hotelier – citer seryess yg best - *****

6.     Lovers in Paris - sweet - ****

7.     Attic Cat- best - ****

8.     Stairway to heaven- best dan hensem banget sih.. - ****

9.     Autumn in My Heart - best  tp sedih - ****

10.  Winter Sonata - best tapi melalut - ****

11.  Love in Havard – lembap - ****

12.  My sweet 19 years old sister in law – ok- ***

13.  18 Vs 29 – ok jugaks- ***

14.  The successful story of a bright girl - comel - ***

15.  I'm sorry I love U - sedih citer dier..tp ok la - ***

16.  Miss Kim Million Dolar Quest - biaser jer.. ***

17.  Wedding – agak tak best - **

See I told you..my preference is bias..hero hensem jer zar sebut..yg heroin dier jelita tak laks sebut eks.. :D Ader lg a few citer in my collection..only U dan Goong@Palace.. my supplier (Umi d’colleague) said Goong nih ok..but I haven’t watch it myself.. only U plaks..subtitle dier x keluar..hempehs..so OK Husna..just enjoy!

My visit to MLK stations...

weeeeeeeee..after 1 year ++ in INO..This is the first time I got out of the office..itupon senyap2 ikut Mr Tang and Dyg (both rakan kerje x seunit) on their outstation to pick up some documents in SKDL Mlk, Pengkalan Balaks..sambil2 tuh singgah sekejap kat SSB Mlk...wahh best nyer dapat tgk Antenna besar2..selalu takjub ngan bende2 satellite nihs.. En Jasni in SSB Mlk sempat explain pasal HPA, LNA and the antenna gain..the bigger the antenna, the higher the gain, so that we don't have to amplify too much for the signal..and biasernyer..the bigger antenna would be used for international link..shot to Intelsat let say...utk TV3 plaks, 5m in diameter antenna is used to shoot to Measat Satellite.

Okeyhs..enough about satellite systems, sampai kat SKDL Melaka dlm kul 2.00 p.m (sempat singgal Pantai Pengkalan Balak sat)..when kerje buruhku bermula..boxes with documents berterabur..aduhh.. strain kat muscle nih sampai skrg terasa..pasal dok angkat kotak2 tuh..tapi anyhow, we manage to achieve our objectife of collecting those needed documents.. berjaya!

Bertolak dari SKDL Mlk dlm kul 5.30 p.m..sempat curik pokok keladi sekali ;D .. on d way sempat singgah kat Sri Intan, PD. Tang nak tinjau2 katanya..ntah nak bwk saper ntah...fuhhh..lepas rindu kat pantai..walaupun sekejap..lama2 pun buat aper kan..then teruskan journey back to KL. sampai kul 7.00 lebih kurangs...

Conclusion, I am so happy that day ! thanks to Mr Tang (penaja trip dan makan :D) and Dyg Defi..I'ts a lovely experience and I really treasure it..except for the muscle strain I guess... ngan rasa nak demam yg tak berkesudahan...

   

MYA ZARA is over

Alkisah..Zar pon tak sure aper yg bestnyer citer nihs..tp mmg follow la..confius betul..citer tuh penuh dgn ketidak logikan semata..and "macam bagus".. hahah..Selamber kutuk kan.. padahal sapala yg dok tunggu citer tuh hari2..

Tapi mmg takleh deny.. eja nih cantik giler..alahai..kkdg terpk..sapalah yg boleh ceraikan dier nihs..cuma tuhla..watak dier dlm Mya Zara nampak mcm bagus sgt..conpius jer..And I like the appearence of Ady Putra dlm citer nih..he look maturer compared to the last time I watched..citer aper tuh..alaa..sambungan citer hartini tuh..nampak lainla..

Hahha..sejak biler laksla beta berkecimpung dlm dunia gossip artis nihs..tak larat..better layan citer korea...hmm..ok citer terbaru yg zar tgk tajuk dier "My Girl"..funny and sweet.. plus hero dier hensem.. ha ha...tapi citer tuh mmg best laa...buat masa skrg..zar rank kan dier no..hmm..no berapa eks..hmm top 5 for sure...dari collection2 citer korea yg zar dah tgk..

Mari kita start kelas bahasa korea :

Kuma sumida, kumabta, kumaeo, kumawo = Terima kasih

Biyane = I'm sorry                                     Sarangeo, sarangata = I luv you

Aa nyi = tidak, tidaklah                             Palleva, palle = cepat

Krom = baiklah                                         Andui = tidak boleh

Deiy = iya                                                Mogo = makan

Booya = apa awak cakap?                          Keroeke = betulker?

Harabuji = datuk                                       Ommunyi = makcik

Ooni = Kakak                                            Oppa = abg

Odongsheng = cousin                                 Ajushi = pakcik, encik

Anyosaio = selamat sejahtera                     Anyegasaiyo = selamat tinggal

Aku dan Kini..

Hehee..pagi-pagi dah kene sound..pasal Zar dah tak update blog lately..aper taknyer..tak byk bende really affecting my life...selain....MINYAK NAIKS!!!  arrghhh bengang betul...

Dahsyat aaa...30 sen sekali naik..waduhs..terbanyang betapa bodohnya alasan2 kerajaan nak calm down rakyat..depa ckp naik sekali nih jerla..lagi mudah naik sekaligus rather than naik sikit2..'bappak' dier (tiada kene mengena dgn kelaurga Pak Lah samada yg masih hidup atau yg telah tiada.. :D kene mention nihs) and plg best "Malaysia masih termurah di Asean except Brunei"..dok compare ngan duit Malaysia...pandai..mmg pandai..siap keluar statistic lg..Aduhai..macamla kita budak-budak kecik..boleh temberang...tak heranla bile org kata GEMILANG TERBILANG TEMBERANG..

Lepas tuh siap bagi cara2 utk mengurangkan perbelanjaan..yang semuanya not applicable utk group2 markhain..yerla..maybe utk org yg berada..maybe 30 sen mean nothing..tapi kalau org2 yg nak survive pon susah nihs.. I might be not as struggle as others..tapi serius Zar terasa...gaji pon cukup2 itu jer sebulan..malah lebih lagi..menyimpan lagilah walang kan.. arghh malas nak citerr..

Biaser beli minyak RM30 bolehla pakai seminggu..18 litre lebih... skrg tinggal 15 litre jer.. bolehla pegi balik office dlm 4 kali..luckily semenjak kene bayar parking nih (dah kene bayar parking laks skrg nihs RM3 sehari) Zar car pool ngan member jer..selang seli bawak keter..ok sket la...kalau tak..habis duit kat situh jer.. adoila..tensen betull...

:D tadi kata taknak citer..tapi tetiba terciter laks...tgh hot nih..ala2 hot.fm...kalau nak pk membebel pjg lagi boleh pegi nihs..pakkal jer dah nak 5.30 p.m.. ptg niii kene naik LRT.. Tini ponteng balik dulu lepas meeting tadik... Grr Grr...LRT pon LRT laaa... okeyhs..tata

Amy Mastura - Kasihku Sinar

It has been long..hmm..sejak akhir2 nihs agak malas nak menulis..maybe pasal kehidupan yg agak 'plain'..tade yg sedih..tader yg gembira..so ape nak citer kan.. takperlah.. lagu kasihku sinar nih..zar tengah main ulang2 hari nihs.. so layan..

Melangkah mengharapkan hadir dirimu
Ku genggam segala memori
Kita dewasa bersama
Menuju satu cita walau jalan berbeza

chorus:
Kasihku sinar tanpa cinta
Sinarnya tanpa asmara
Dengarilah hatiku rindu
Kasihku mekar tak berbunga
Mekarnya di dalam jiwa
Biarkanlah biarkan saja
Kasihku sinar

Andai kau ada di sini
Terukirlah senyuman tersingkir rasa sepi
Andai kau pergi dari sisi jangan di singkir
Diriku dari mimpimu

chorus

Kasihku sinat tanpa cinta
Sinarnya tanpa asmara
Dengarilah hatiku rindu
Kasihku mekar tak berbunga
Mekarnya di dalam jiwa
Biarkanlah biarkan saja(biarkan..)
Biarkanlah...
Biarkan saja...
Kasihku sinar....kasihku sinar

Hmm sempat lagi..

skrg 8.45 a.m.. sat gie Zar ader briefing kat Menara..hempehs..bos baru jer bagi tau..tapi takper..sempat lagi utk buat routine pagi..not including this one..:p

Sajer nak menulis..bila teringatkan citer sedih member nihs smlm..kene tippu hidup-hidup ngan pakwe dier..ya Allah..mcm tak percaya..mcm dalam filem pon ader..kesian sgt kat dier..org pompuan..kalau dah sayang.. isk..

This once again struck mind..Life..luck won't always on our side..byk cabarannya..liku-liku yg selalu org titipkan dalam lirik lagu tuh..inilah dia..sdgkan kita jarang bersedia..thank god..ramai kawan-kawan yg kene dugaan nhs..tabah2 belaka.. Alhamdulillah..mudah2an Allah tabahkan mereka..dan diri zar jugak..we never know..satu jer Zar harap..kalau Allah nak amik jiwa zar sekalipun, biarlah masatuh Zar dah cukup bekalan utk diri zar ke alam yg lagi satu..dan bekalan duniawi yg perlu Zar tinggalkan for my family...zar takde saper2 lagi kat dunia nih melainkan mereka..Jgnla sampai mereka terkapai2 tanpa Zar nanti..Insya-Allah..

Ya Allah, if only you let me go..sbg seorang mukminah..dlm keadaan husnul-khatimah..

It has been long..

Diam tak diam dah nak sebulan tak menulis..Aicheh..mcm profesional writer laks..padahal hempehs..Lately hooked up sket ngan office work..taderla byk sgt kerje pon..membanyakkan kerja aderla..but life is like always..tade major change pon..

Kalau nak ikutkan planning asal, sepatutnya Zar dah transfer ker tempat baru dah..tapi mcm tuh jugak..tade tande pon GM nak lepaskan zar..hempehs la.. dah la hidup makin saturated lately...terasa la kot..bosan..dulu lainla..busy pasal manager tade..tak sempat nak pk bosan ker tidak.. :D..skrg nih gyg kaki lebih..hmm Taker yg baru balik kerje 4 bulan pon dah boleh mengadu bosan..

Bila bosan-bosan nihs..byk bende yg terpk..perasaan rindu pon membuak-buak.. rindu nak teach somebody..rindu kat buku2..notes..rindu kat UK sgt...and plg bengong..boleh pulak rindu kat susu segar yg 60p per bottle...maksudnyer rindu kehidupan dolu2 kat UK lah tuh..symptom nak tua kot..

Tuerr?? isk..isk..tak best la getting 26th nihss..tak best no tuh..tak sukerlaa...

Hari-hari tangis ku..

Tak sangka January ku sambut dgn deraian air mata..namun..biarlah permulaan ini membawa sepenuh keinsafan diri sbg makhluk Allah di masa-masa depan..siapalah kita..

Cerita psl kawan Zar, she lost her husband menjelang penghujungnya 2005. Tak sempat genap setahun pon her marriage, tapi atas kehendak ilahi her husband passed away. Sedih bila dengarkan cerita dia..macamana dah try berubat, jumpa doctor tapi doctor kater tader aper-aper..and pagi tuh, tetiba jer husband dier rebah.

Bende nihs happens kan and can happen..bukan nak salahkan doctorla..ajal mmg dah tersurat..tapi tuhla, this incident buat Zar lebih celik mata...jgn pandang remeh kalau sakit..biar sikit pon..who knows kan..it may be a symptom.

He suffers pulmonary embolism..It is a sudden blockage in a lung artery, usually due to a blood clot that traveled to the lung from the leg...rare kan..biasernya utk org tua jer..tapi pasal bende nak jadikan penyebab..so anything could be..Penyakit arwah hanya dpt di detect..after the post motem..

But what I admire most is her courage..She's so calm. Setitik air mata pon tak berlinang masa dier citer.. penghabisnya, air mata Zar yg berjurai..cheh..fail sungguh...sampai ke mlm tuh, biler zar citer balik kat my member pon..sempat lagi berjurai-jurai..hempehss..nampak kememe' kan..

Tapi actually pasal Zar try to put myself in her shoes. zar pernah envy kat dier pasal perjalanan hidup dier mudah. balik buat master, then get married, sambung PhD..Sdgkan Zar masih struggle..tapi tuhla..bila zar try tanya balik diri Zar, sanggupker zar kehilangan suami tersayang terlalu awal? belum sempat pon dier tgk baby yg bakal due in March...Mmg Zar tak sanggup..tapi yerla kan...mana-mana isteri pon tak sanggup...cuma adakah Zar akan setenang my fren nih..mmg tak dpt imagine..sdgkan dengar citer pon dah banjir..mmg dugaan Allah nih macam-macam kan.. we never knows..

Zar doakan mudah-mudahan perjalanan hidup my fren nih dipermudahkan..Insya-Allah..dan mudah-mudahan bila Zar timpakan dugaan kelak Zar akan setabah dia..

p/s: "menyintaimu dengan gilanya.."..petikan translation lagu dari siri citer korea 'stairway to heaven', penyumbang kedua drama air mata...baru habies malam tadi..sob..sob..

Life in 2005

Aduhai..tak sanggup rasanya melalui masa-masa sengsara tade kerja seharian. It has been 3 days without job and I felt like rubbish..dtg opis, menghabiskan masa and depress sendiri pasal 'melopong' the whole day...

Nihla dier hidup sbg BSQM..kalau kerje melambak..hah amik ko..at the same time sekelepuk..tp time kerje dah habies..mmg ronggeng la..nak cuti rasa rugi pulaks..time nih la sptutnya dtg kerje kan..time kerje berlambak tuh..barulah cuti..ehehe..betul ker idelogi nihs..nyeh..nyeh..

In 3 days, 2005 will be leaving..sekaligus umur pon meningkatlah..eiyy..tak best nyer 26..kalau 25 tuh masih rasa muda lagiks...hoho...tapi takper..2005 is quite meaningful though..I achieve at least one of my big dreams..yo.. dpt beli keter..in a time that i would really need it...Kerje pon ok..kerje kat Telekom nihs lain rasanya kan..compared to my time masa jd tutor. Best terasa day by day passes with flying colors..each day terasa that I'm contributing something in my works..except those days like today la..yg hempeh tader kerje..tapi rasa puas lahhh...walau kerje sampai tak ingat punya sometimes...kalau nak tanya kenapa zar balik Telekom..itulah jawapannya...kepuasan..

Hope in 2006, I would achieve different things pulaks..other dreams..and other stage of life...

Ohh my god.. I luv my parents..hope that I could fulfill their dreams thru me..especially you, Abah..

Lirik Lagu Ku Seru - Misha Omar

It's not that my memory getting worse lately I think..tapi sejak dua menjak nihs susah betul Zar nak memorize lyrics..kalau bende lain okeyhs jugak rasa..tapi ituhpon Zar dah start balik kegiatan menulis activity harian kat planner..kot tak sure hempehs jugak..week nih Zar sibuk ngan MR and budget sepatutnya..tapi memandangkan org lain pon tak bg respond..malas nak nak menyiksakan diri kerisauan..lantaks..

Lagu nihs antara lagu yg Zar suka dengar skrg..suka jugak lagu Jac-wajah tuh..yg pon tak dpt di memorizekan...hmm..kene start makan raisin balik nihs nampaknya..

ohh yaaa.. last weekend, Zar attend wedding Didi..kawan masa kat MRSM Bkt Lrt dulu..Selamat Pengantin Baru, Didi..

p/s: "Zar, ngko mcm nih jugak..kurus"  perkataan pertama Noorlin ngan Didi setelah sekian lama tak berkontekan..hellooooo..I'm trying my best to push my weight ere...yeah yeaaah..

Lirik Lagu Ku Seru - Misha Omar
Ku membayangi jiwa hatimu
Tapi perpisahan menunggu
Ku ingin membelaimu
Namun kasihku tiada restu

Diri begini kerna selama
Ditinggalkan marah sengsara
Hingga hilang terlupa
Siapa aku sebenarnya....Sayang

Oh dengarlah sayu tangisanku
Mengapa degupanmu ku seru
Kerna kesepian nan terlalu
Kembalikan hidup yang ku rindu

Oh dengarlah sunyi tangisanku
Kau tahu ku amat menyayangimu
Oh pergilah kau bukan milikku
Pulang pada yang mengasihi dirimu

Ohh..kesepian berlalu ohoh..
Maafkan Daku

Sampai disini
Ku lepas kau pergi
Biar ku damai bersemadi

Luka mu ku mengerti
Kan ku hilangkan derita ini

Kerawang.space

Wajah - Jaclyn Victor

Berbumbungkan angkasa kelabu
Lantainya bumi retak seribu
Setiap langkah perjalananmu beronak berliku
Betapa berat mata memandang
Berat lagi menggalas bebannya
Belum sempat menitis ke pipi
Tangisan kering sendiri

Berkali tersungkur
Pandanganmu kabur
Namun azam meneruskan hidup tak pernah
luntur
Engkaulah perwira di medan derita
Merentasi ranjau kehidupan dengan harapan

Luahan rasa derita jiwa
Pada wajah tiada rahsia
Menunggu malang berganti tuah
Usah kau berputus asa

Wedding pulaks..

Hmm..lepas jer hari raya..terus berderet kawan-kawan terdekat Zar naik pelamin..Eheh..3 jer baru.. Along & Hasry,Ida & Mizie and terbaru my X roommate, Syabeela. Tp gie Ida nyer wed ngan chabi jer.. Along nyer awal sgt..

Gie Weeding Ida and Mizie kat Dewan Masjid Putrajaya, 12 Nov. Gie ngan Adek tp berkumpul ngan gadis-gadis Melaka di sana.. best nyer..lama tak jumpa member. Lama jugak kitorang meng'conquer' meja. buat tak paham jer..ekeks.. cantik songket Ida ngan mizie. Pandai pilih colour and location. tapi kesian.. Ida hilang h/bag that day. Tak patut betul.

Then Sabtu lepas,19 Nov, wedding Chabi laks, kat Batu Kikir. Bertolak dlm kul 9.30pg dari cygal and sampai sana dlm kul 11.30pg. Wahh kat luar lagi dah berkumandang lagu Hindustan, mmg tak silap rumah lagi. :D Chabi cantik sgt. tak nampak kurus pon sesuaila dgn Zubaeir. Alhamdulillah, my mate dah lepas dah..I'm really happy for her.

Balik jer dari Batu Kikir that day..hujan lebat sgt..nyaris tidur kat Kuala Pilah that day..nasib baik selamat sampai..thank you to Laily, pemandu berhemah kami..

Raya Part 2 - Family

Hmm..Hmmmm..Gambar Family raya nihs.. Taken on the 1st day of Raya..Sad 4 me coz tahun nihs, baju raya tak siap..and so dgn rasminya..this year is the 2nd year I don't have a baju raya. The 1st time masa Zar kat UK dulu..huk..huk..jahatla kakak tkg jahit tuh..tippu..kata dah potongla..akan siap la..pastuh kata peningla..pitamla...whateva..

Nasib baik bawak jugakla satu-dua baju kurung..and beta tetap vogue jugak that day..nak b